In case you didn’t know, there is a disease out there called Stinkin’ Thinkin’. (You need to say it with a southern accent) A lot of people suffer from this disease. I didn’t realize I had it until I started going through counseling and my counselor pointed it out to me. This disease distorts the way you look at everything. It had taken over my thoughts and was making the panic attacks much worse. Continue reading “Stinkin’ Thinkin’”
One thing is for sure, I watched lots of tv shows in my childhood. It was an escape for me. One of my favorites was Father Knows Best. The Anderson family represented what I wanted in a family. I was specifically drawn to the father in this show. He was kind, caring and always there for his family. I wanted Jim Anderson to be my Dad because he helped his family solve their problems. My Dad seemed to create the problems in our family. Continue reading “Father Knows Best”
I saved one book from my adolescent years. It was a Nancy Drew book called, “The Moonstone Castle Mystery.” I have always had a fascination for mysteries. When I got a Nancy Drew book in my hands, I couldn’t put it down. I loved following the clues and the twists and turns that Nancy went through to solve the crime. I have always been drawn to those types of books, movies and television shows. I love trying to figure out who committed the crime. Most of the criminals in these books are trying to keep people from finding out their secrets and most of them commit murder to keep their secrets buried. Continue reading “Nancy Drew”
When I was a little girl, I loved to play Hide and Seek. I lived in a neighborhood where there were lots of kids to play with and that game was one of our favorites. I challenged myself to find the best hiding places so no one could find me. We lived across the street from a high school football stadium and it proved to be the best place to play that game. It was supposed to be off limits for me to go there because my parents couldn’t keep an eye on me. Of course, I had to hide there because there was an element of danger in doing so. I remember hearing my Mom calling for me to come home, but I would stay and hide because the game wasn’t over yet. Continue reading “Hide and Seek”
I began my journey 15 years ago after my 40th birthday. I wasn’t handling turning 40 very well. I felt like I was having a nervous breakdown. I mean shaking in my shoes kinda nervous breakdown! That’s when the panic attacks began. I had no idea what was going on. The attacks weren’t bad at first. They would come and go. But then, I had one for 3 straight days and I couldn’t function. I couldn’t leave the house. I couldn’t drive. I was paralyzed with fear. I prayed and prayed all the time. I cried out to God. “What is happening to me? I am so scared! I don’t understand what is going on inside of me. Help me!” So, I went to the doctor and she told me I was experiencing panic attacks. She gave me medication to take to help with the symptoms and sent me home. Continue reading “Let the Journey Begin”
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