As I have gotten older, my vision has gotten worse. I noticed the change in my vision during my forties when I started having issues reading things. I would have to hold books as far away as possible to read them, so I gave in to getting “reader” glasses. I had to find the cutest ones I could to offset the need to wear them. Then, my vision for seeing things far away got worse so I had to give in to getting prescription glasses and contacts. My days of seeing things without help were over. I had to have my glasses on or contacts in to see.
The biggest part of my problem with viewing God has been my inability to see Him as He truly is. I was viewing Hm through dark-tinted glasses. I was looking at God from a very frightened little girl’s perspective. I allowed my circumstances to dictate how I viewed Him. I had to learn to see Him differently. Beth Moore says, “Now go and act like the dearly loved child you are today. And not just anyone’s dearly loved child. Keep in mind today that your Father created that world and told the sun to come up again this morning. I’ll be right here on my throne all day long. Keep checking in with me and let me know what you need. You have my cell number.”
Beth also said, “Christ came to earth and became a man with the purpose of meeting all of God’s expectations. He pleased the Father in every way.” Wow! I wanted a father-daughter relationship desperately, but I kept beating my head against the wall trying to have it with my Dad. He wasn’t capable of giving me what I desperately wanted. I kept trying and trying to have a relationship with him, but was disappointed all the time. I had to quit trying to get what I wanted from my earthly father. The only father that was going to truly meet my needs was my heavenly father. This verse was the key that finally got me to turn from my destructive cycle. “The Lord said to Samuel, “How long will you mourn for Saul, since I have rejected him as king over Israel?” 1Sam.16:1
I was mourning over a horrible relationship with my father that was destructive and dysfunctional. Why in the world did I want to have anything to do with someone that kept treating me badly? The answer was because I wanted a Daddy plain and simple. But, I was trying to get one from the wrong person. It was time to quit doing that and start looking at my heavenly Father as my Daddy. He was telling me it was time to move on, and thank heavens I listened to Him.
He told me, “Laurie, I created you. I love you more than you will ever be able to understand. I have a plan and a purpose for you. You are precious to me. I am holding you in the palm of my hand. I am watching over you. I am crazy about you and I will never harm you. There is nothing you can do to make me stop loving you. I want to spend time with you, teach you and counsel you. I want you to tell me all your hopes and dreams. I want to help you in all you do. I want to be your strength. I will guide you and direct you down the correct path. I love spending time with you.”
It still blows me away that the God of the universe wants to spend time with me. He wants to be my Dad. He wants to help me and guide me. I was challenged by a statement by Beth Moore, “Your life, your family, your background, your health, your job, your service, your circumstances-how differently would you view those things if you could see them only in relationship to God on His throne?” In other words, I needed to look at everything in my life through God-filtered glasses.
So, I wrote this. “For 40 years I have allowed other people to take Your place in my life. The last 4 1/2 years You have been showing me that I need to put You first. You have been trying to show me who You are and Your desire to have a relationship with me. You want me to know You as my Daddy. I want to quit mourning over my lost relationship with my Dad. It is time to move on and heal. I need to choose You and Your ways. Help me to live a life that pleases You. I love you so much! Thank you for loving me and help me to comprehend Your love for me. I haven’t been living my life as a dearly loved child and I need help to do that!”
I want to live the rest of my life as a dearly loved child of God. I confess it is hard to do when I take my God-filtered glasses off. When I look at myself without them, I see a very willful child. I pick at myself and tell myself horrible things. I honestly don’t like what I see. But, when I put them back on, I look at myself the way that God wants me to see myself- His dearly loved child. I really struggle with my self-image, so I especially need to wear them when I look at myself. He doesn’t like it when I criticize myself and tear myself down or when I do the same to other people. He wants me to see myself and others through His eyes and not my own.
So, will you take the time to look at God and see Him for who He truly is? And will you see yourself as God sees you-His dearly loved child? When you focus on things from His viewpoint, you find the perspective you need to live your life. He also helps you look at others the way you should too. They are also his dearly loved children. I need to remind myself of this fact every time someone hurts me. I have learned not to focus on them, but to focus on how God wants me to view the situation. The only way to do this is to spend time with Him and let Him speak to me.
Isaiah 44:18-19 says, “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.”
Until next time fellow sojourners!